Well, I never thought I'd see the day that I stopped updating, but that day has come. I might update again once in a while, but I'm pretty sure I'm about done with this blog. It has been three and a half years, and I am moving on because I've seen the bigger picture lately. And it doesn't really involve spending time updating my blog.
It does involve building my relationship with God, learning how to make wedding cakes, becoming fluent in Spanish, learning an instrument, truly learning at school. Physically, when something stops growing, it starts dying. I think I'm going to try to grow in all areas of my life because you only get one life to live.
Anyway, it has just hit me lately that life is so much bigger than just putting in a good 80 years on this earth, because I have the promise of eternal life. "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life." John 3:16. I mean, how about that? It's so simple.
"Behold, I shew you a mystery; We shall not all sleep, but we shall all be changed, in a moment, in the twinkling of an eye, at the last trump: for the trumpet shall sound, and the dead shall be raised incorruptible, and we shall be changed. For this corruptible must put on incorruption, and this mortal must put on immortality. So when this corruptible shall have put on incorruption, and this mortal shall have put on immortality, then shall be brought to pass the saying that is written, Death is swallowed up in victory. O death, where is thy sting? O grave, where is thy victory? The sting of death is sin; and the strength of sin is the law. But thanks be to God, which giveth us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ. Therefore, my beloved brethren, be ye stedfast, unmoveable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, forasmuch as ye know that your labour is not in vain in the Lord." I Corinthians 15:51-58
I have so much hope to look forward to.
such a weight off my shoulders
I quit my job today. Well, my waitressing job. I've had enough. So I just finish out the weekend and then I think I'm off the schedule.
I'm trying to figure out if I want to go back to American Eagle for the last 6 weeks of summer in addition to babysitting, or just try to get some more babysitting jobs.
It is so hard for me to quit things. I feel like I'm letting people down, and being a failure or something. After I called and told them that I was giving them my notice, I cried because I don't like feeling like I can't
do something. But that's not it. I could continue being a waitress if I wanted to and do it well, but I just would rather not. It's so stressful, and I want to have a summer where I don't completely dread going to work. The only thing I will miss is the friends I made at work, but I can always see them again.
Last night at Emily's party, I talked to Sharon about quitting, and she said she was in the exact same situation and that she was quitting her waitressing job tomorrow (today) because it was really stressful and some other stuff. She said she just didn't want to go into her job everyday wondering if she was going to cry, and man I feel the same way. I'm glad she can relate, because it made me feel like quitting wasn't as big of a deal. I mean, the restaurant industry sees people come and go all the time. And besides, the only manager I really liked is leaving after July 4th to go to a different restaurant.
Anyway, I'm sorry I haven't updated in forever.
Things are going well. Weston is back in Chapel Hill doing the second session of summer school. I went to visit him yesterday and it felt great to be back on campus; I miss it.
Last night, Emily had a party... as I mentioned above. It was really fun, in the good-old-days sort of way. In the morning, Frank and I made eggs, toast, and bacon for ourselves while we searched for my missing right sandal (which Emily eventually found under the armchair, where I swear we looked) and watched Freaks and Geeks (everyone else was already gone, except Emily and Ty who already ate). Man I love Freaks and Geeks. What a great show--I heard they took it off the air because it had too many drug references. Lame.
Tonight I just ate dinner and watched a movie with my parents. It was nice to be home after being gone to the beach with friends this past weekend.
I think it's about time I go to the pool again.
Oh, and p.s. I got a sweet bike for my birthday (yes, I'm 10 years old). It's a Diamondback and it has a really comfortable seat and it's green and I'm going to ride it all around campus.
Things para ti.
I am nineteen. Since yesterday.
I'm starting to take a good multi-vitamin.
I am still aspiring to get tan this summer.
I just bought Forever Tan lotion to help.
I need to clean my room, yet again.
I really like Weston.
My mom is making brownies and homemade ice cream for me tonight in honor of my birth.
I want to save lots of money.
I have made $498.52 so far this summer.
I like to be organized and keep track of my money.
I want/need a bike.
I love days off.
we are many and they are few
My sister got back from Key West today and is here to pick up her doggie Cruiser (our dog, but technically hers she she keeps him) and drive back to Virginia Beach. She and my mom went to Firestone to pick up her car and then, when my dad gets home, she is going to open her birthday presents, because her birthday was yesterday.
Also, that means that my birthday is in eight days. I don't know if I'm excited or not, because I really want to do
something for my birthday, and I haven't made the effort to make any plans yet. If only my house were a good house for parties. Anyway, Weston said he wanted to take me somewhere (he won't tell me where) on my actual birthday, and I asked off from work, so that should be fun. I just want to see my friends at some point, too. But while drunk on Friday night, me, Matt, and Emily talked about having a birthday party for the three of us sometime in June because our birthdays are pretty close together, and that would be a lot of fun. Matt said he'd try to get his dad to go out of town.
I might have to just accept being kind of pale this summer, unless my skin can figure out a way to be exposed to sun for a while and not freak out and get irritated. Sensitive skin sucks. Oh well, I can always invest in a good bronzer and just lay out once in a while.
Emily keeps calling me when I don't have my phone on me and I feel bad. We keep playing phone tag. Phone tag sucks as well.
Driving home today I saw this older woman walking on the side of the road, coming home from the grocery store or something. She was wearing a hat with a big brim and a flowered dress and I felt bad that she had to walk in this heat. It was 2 pm and probably around 85 or 90 degrees. I always want to pick up people like her and give them a ride, but no one trusts anyone enough anymore to do a thing like that.